Saturday, February 11, 2012

What doesn't kill you TRULY makes you stronger...


Yesterday marks my one-year of being cancer free! Looking back to last year I honestly couldn’t think of how I was going to make it through all of this. I wish I could say giving up never crossed my mind but anyone fighting cancer, my family and friends know there were a few times it did. Beating cancer seemed unthinkable. Everyday the mental and physical pain of my illness increased.  Seeing my loved ones watch me go through this gave them the pain too as if they were also fighting. I would try so hard to only show my positive side because I didn’t want anyone seeing me so scared too. Everyday I somehow got through it mostly for them. On February 10 2011 is the day my oncologist told me I reached remission. I was so happy I couldn’t even believe it. Although it meant I still had to finish my 2 years of treatment, it gave me a huge push to keep going. I had beaten cancer, now all I had to do was endure the side effects and keep up with my chemotherapy. Now one year later it AMAZES me how everyday dragged on and seemed never ending. How you can’t even begin to think of how you’ll make it through these curves life throws at you. Also its crazy to think a year has past just like that. I’m so thankful for my family and friends who pushed me everyday. Beating this has been more positive than negative. So what that cancer temporarily took my hair and life. Hair grows back and my life has only now changed for the better. I’ve truly never felt so happy in my life. Cancer made me appreciate everything and everyone. It also helped me with my future. I know I want to work with children and be a child life specialist. It’s an emotional job but no one can relate to them as much as I can. I want to help them overcome this and give them hope! Being diagnosed with Leukemia was a day I’ll never forget, but how it’s impacted my life, family’s life and friends it’s been a blessing. Cancer has definitely given me way more than it has taken and for that I’m so thankful!